i am sorry to all those whom i disappointed!!!

Well its 11 55 pm and still 5 minutes to go before the end of day...!! i am sorry all u guys whom i disappointed today.... to hurt u was never my intention.... things happen , i just don't know there reason.... i pity myself as well as my friends..... i am responsible for all the pain u r experiencing today. i am the one you are cursing at the moment. am your culprit.!!..
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During the last 5 minutes there wasnt any activity on my system except that screensaver running from one pixel to other on my monitor....... what kept running in my mind was ....... i am guilty to all those whom i disappointed but what about those who disappointed me , who hurt me , what about the people whose action pinched me , pinched me really hard, striked me deep within..... My ear holes waiting for the word sorry to be poured in with.... but do they really care....??? have they ever cared to come up ...?

yes bhupi you are right when you say:

Stop judging People and stop analyzing yourself because if others don't care much about you, there is no point wasting your time over it. The world is getting Selfish, time you change yourself!!

There are so many good things coming your way, just find them and start grabbing them!!!

My Neck is over burdened !!

Mission , Sector 9, Chandigarh ( in front of Taj :) ) perfect place to bang ur head and get ""headanged""!!
Well don't know what happened yesterday, as i cant explain in detail...the reason(s) being....

1. I Dont drink
2. I didnt dance much
3. I could not eat much
4. Lack of company
5. No head banging at all

On a serious note , the party was kewl and we had loadza fun..!! and when i say fun it means something interesting!
the after effects were not good though......

1. sleepy at his best( i just love him and his basketball game and his hair and his driving !!)














2. some more pity plight














3. 3 cars driven by me back to college!!
4. Rs 84 spend at mirchi bhai for nimbu pani for myself and my hosteler friends
5. i got fine soon and jealous too, bhupi jaan in jaagi s room, arjun in his and sandy in sagars sleeping like dead dogs...
6. got Semi Food Poisoning due to_______ ( don't know what, food mite not be good ;) )
7. came back home and had to sit down with mom and dad , behaving like the worlds most well behaved child..... wont discuss that much it makes me ashamed of myself!!
8. slept at 10 , woke up at 2: 30 wondering why this neck was so overburdened, strolled in the balcony for some time and then as usual cursed myself for head banging yet again!!
9. went to visit my shit pot at 3, realized am suffering from loose motions, though it turned out to be something big later :)
10. visits to mirchi in the morning ending up with 5 nimbu paanis and 2 ganne ke juice and 2 limcas by 5 in the evening.....

The neck still screams pain and the tummy is struggling with food(something unique with me)... still the party ROCKED and i love my class for it!!

Hip hip Hurray and we mite miss you seniors( :D just kidding ;) )!!

Is this my future??

well yes....!!
April 19th 2007 to April 30th 2007 in rupees 50.... seems impractical but thats the hard way to live this expensive life!!!

well well well ..this does not include the following... :( :( :(
1. Bobby- Rs 878 ....i just adore him.... if he wasnt there i would have starved to death. god bless him..
2. Dappi- Rs 370 .... ha ha ha ha... dappi ha ha ha!!
3. Bhupi- Rs 75.... bhupi jaan to sab kuch jaanta hai... i hope he doesnt create any fuss about it.
4. Jaggi- Rs 40 .... again a darling.... need not say anything more :) :)
5. Karan Rs 50.... now thats something to worry about... so better not discuss about it.
6. Miscellaneous-- well that includes charu (400 bucks..... she tried but had to give up in the end) and many more whom i dont want to mention here....

This might give you the hint of what i am going thru..... please please please donate something for my welfare...(do i need to say anything more!!!???)

Just another sad one!!

Midst the plunders of pain
in my heart sorrow rains
to DO or NOT to
being false or true
burning the me in me
encapsulating the fear
fear of failure after success
success a dream
post-success all cries and scream!!!


Above is the result of listening Operating System and Networking lectures......!!!

Am i the one!?

Well sitting in the College Library ... Preparing for my Software Engineering exam reading about risk management concepts.... suddenly something strucked my mind... i was having Minku s lappi ... and then there was no looking back....
Start Menu--> Run --> Notepad

All that i was thinking came into my fingers while i was typing...... finally it was a page or 2 of some looser thoughts(atleast swati thinks so)...... it started with :
"u loose only those things which u gain , so why gain...... u need to do hardwork if only u are capable of.... so y try to become capable, a world full of presumptions, contemplations, preemptions, assumptions and what not. still we love it!"

..... it went on with such stuff....

then i realized that these master words i.e. my feelings should be spread..... i called himanshu ...initially he was interested however after listening to the first two lines he decided he should take leave.. he left the library.... i looked for some fachas ... even got hold of few but they also withdrew (hey this rhymes...!! ), dhawan almost pushed me out of the library
sad but not lost i moved around..... and finally my final victims .... SID and KARAN.. both engrossed in those subject slides... it was a brave ( but a wrong ) decision to go and disturb them.... but my motive wasn't wrong... just wanted to enlighten them....
well with fear in my heart i started..... sid was surprisingly interested.... and here came his reply....
" c***** this is what Buddha used to say!!! "

well i had never thought i could match my thoughts with that big name !! .... that led me to get one more vahiyat photograph clicked, my new buddha avatar!!. i was in the hundredth heaven (if there is any )....


i felt like messaging everyone the fact i discovered about myself the truth that was about to change my life... (though at that time my outgoing was barred and i had no means to get it re - activated)

but as they say .... nothing is permanent...... while i was blabbering about my new found avatar..!!
sid as usual got irritated and i got the usual treatment ...... DIsHUUMMMMM

on my right shoulder came a biggg PUNCH... that bastard Boxer will never know how it feels when u get a punch from a 55 kg hand..!! huge gigantic he is..... now what happened after the punch is something i dont want to share ,.... still below is the chair i was sitting on..
no where cud i be seen, no where cud anybody trace be.... where cud i be....??? well where else---->> cafe....
stopped studying after that .... realised it wont help... others didnt and wasted there 3 hours... end result ..... all screwed the exam but atleast i utilised my time before the exam ... played basketball and won the match...!


PS : After reading this .... if you think why did u open my page?? then i am sorry for u guys... this is a boring sunday afternoon when there is nothing to be done ... its either rock or blog(again it rhymed)!!!